Kailey says to Ella while she is being nursed all while gently stroking her head
- 'I love you baby, you are so special'.
First time Kailey watched me feed her.
-'The baby is eating mommy?' 'Why the baby biting her?' 'What happened to your boobies Mommy'
First time holding her at home.
-'The baby wont bite my boobies will she?'
In the hospital.
-'Here mommy have a hug to feel better'
-'Here mommy, I help you feel better - putting a piece of Kleenex over my IV'
-'You got a sore tummy?'
*literally my heart was broken not being around my girl for that long. She felt it big time the 2nd night while she stared into my eyes full of tears begging to stay in the Hospital with me. Not sure if it would have been better to leave her home, but she did handle things very well until that good-bye. Nothing like rocking your world though to see that look of desperation. Soooo glad to be home. She has been so amazing and wanting to help with everything and anything Ella related. Love it.
**why the section?
-really wanted to try to have a natural labor, but it was not in the cards again. I went in for my routine check up and told him that I was feeling 'off' & having some tightening and he sent me to the third floor for a non-stress test and the monitor showed that I was having contractions every 5 minutes although I was not feeling them really - other than tightening. He checked and I was not dilated at all and there was no progress and with 5 minutes apart there should have been. There is a risk of hemorrhage at the scar location from the last one and he really did not feel comfortable jump starting things medicinally (it likely wouldn't have worked anyway given my past with Kailey, in fact I was worse off this time). So off to the OR for a 3pm section. Once he was in there he was so relieved we went this way seeing as I had an scar tissue issue at the incision point from the previous section and it would have been a distinct possibility that contracting any greater than I was would have punched through the scar given what he saw. Thank you for looking out for me up there!!! I know you were and I thank you cause missing any part of these two angels lives is not an option. With that - my tubes are tied and I will enjoy my 2 blessings to the fullest.
Little Ella (who I assumed was a boy) was born and sporting a sweet head of dark hair and K-bears chin. I was laughing I was so excited when I saw her. This section went so much smoother this time and I got to come home earlier than last time...thank God considering there were times where I didn't see a nurse for hours...I mean many many hours. I am in pain, of course, but I am in good spirits and love the nursing experience so far. She has a quick little temper on her - gets that from Jack (tee hee), but all in all she is really getting the hang of feeding. Not functioning on much sleep, but I am still on a 'high' from it all so I am hanging in there. Thanks to MOM and JACK {{{{hugs}}}, could not do this without them. CLOTHES!!!!! This gal is hooked up thanks to big sis.
